Shona's Tumbles

10 Weird Things With My Pregnancy

I seriously fantasize about ending this 1st trimester. It’s just driving me up the wall! Here are some of the things I’m going through…

1) I have no desire for food. I eat because I realize that I need some food to live. But nothing…nothing at all seems appetizing to me. This is very distressing to my BF!

2) I can drink water like it’s going out of style. And anything else for that matter. Makes me feel better about not eating…and gives me hope that I’m not going to die!

3) Everything smells bad. I’m not nauseous or gagging. But it’s very uncomfortable to smell strong smells…especially meat cooking. I needed to wash dishes while my BF was cooking. He gave me one of those respirators that painters use to keep fumes out. Don’t laugh….it worked!

4) I always have a bad taste in my mouth. Again, not nauseous. Just always swallowing in a futile effort to remove this aftertaste (and ironically, mouthwash & toothpaste make it worse!)

5) I’m past being utterly exhausted; but I have no energy either. 2 weeks ago, I was sleeping spontaneously…everywhere. Now I’m past that, but I still don’t have any get up and go. Oh, and I’m sleep by 10pm at the latest…every night.

6) I’ve lost two pounds since before I conceived. Yeah..figure that one out!

7) I feel the need to climb out of my skin. I get either too hot, or a vague sick to my stomach feeling, or just tingling skin. I’m itching to find another body to occupy…one that isn’t being wrecked by hormones.

8) 2 weeks ago my entire chest area was a danger zone for pain. Now…they are almost normal (weird).

9) My two episodes of mystery bleeding have left me hopelessly paranoid. I feel as if I’m vulnerable to my insides just exploding any minute now!

10) I have no real clue or desire as to whether I would prefer this little olive to be a boy or a girl. When I was younger…I always had a preference for girls. Now I really don’t care….just come out & be healthy already!

{sigh} Counting down the days…

8 Weeks, 4 Days

Well here I am, in my eighth week. It hasn’t been easy getting here, and right now, in my mind, this journey seems endless! My main physical symptom is breast swelling, tenderness and mild pain. I still really haven’t had “classic” morning sickness. Rather I just have an all-around aversion to food and things tend to leave a bad taste in my mouth.

On a more worrisome note, I’ve already had two episodes of bright red bleeding…which is driving me up the wall. The first occurred at 6 and a half weeks. I woke up in the morning to use the bathroom, wiped, and saw bright red blood! I was shocked. I hadn’t felt any cramping and I didn’t even feel wet. I wiped several more times and while the discharge was lighter, it was still coming. I went to the ER…which turned into an all day ordeal. They did a battery of tests and an ultrasound. My HCG levels were good and the ultrasound found the baby to be the right size and with a heartbeat of 122 bpm. The discharge lasted until early the next day, a watery pink tinge…seemed to go on forever, but eventually stopped.

5 days ago, the second bout of bleeding occurred. This time, I was actually laying in bed and felt wet (but no pain). I was half asleep at 4 am but my room light was still on. I instinctively reached down and pulled my hand up, and my fingers were stained with bright red blood. I went to the bathroom, wiped several times, and at first it didn’t seem to be letting up at all. I wasn’t cramping though. But I put on a maxi pad. I checked the pad for the next several hours, but other than the initial stain, no new blood seemed to be pooling. I would wipe though, and the discharge was still there….although turning pink. I didn’t want to go through the whole hospital ordeal again, so I just stayed home from work and took it easy. The bleeding tapered off and stopped completely the following evening.

This whole situation is just maddening. I feel that if a miscarriage is going to happen, it should just “boom!” happen. I don’t want it to be long and drawn out while I wait on pins and needles. I have my first real pre-natal visit in 2 days. In the meantime I’m trying to assess my body and see if I still feel pregnant or not.

I really can’t wait for this first trimester to be over.

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5 Weeks, 2 Days

It’s so crazy; it’s been a week since I missed my period. In many ways, it doesn’t feel real at all, because my physical symptoms are practically non-existent. They day before and the day of my anticipated period, I had cramping. It wasn’t progressive…like PMS cramping. It would come in waves. But a times it would be really sharp and uncomfortable. It was like my body was sputtering and trying to start my period, but the little zygote would come up and be like, “No, stop!”. Really, it was probably just implantation cramping. But it was very worrisome when it was going on.

Now, I don’t feel anything. Except for tired and thirsty. No morning sickness; just a bit of heaviness in my chest (no soreness). So all those months I spent fretting about infertility; now I’m fretting about miscarriage. I’ve thanked G-d for this, but I also I’m baffled. What happened last month that didn’t happen the previous 15? Could that mystery problem affect the health of the baby somehow? Yes, I’m still very worried.

December (when I’m due) seems forever and a day from now. I have a lot to accomplish between then and now. And I have to somehow do it while keeping my wits about me. Easier said than done!